Feet breath's Blog (165)

How can you know if you're getting spiritually attacked or if it's just life? It seems like everything has turned upside down since I woke up. If it is an attack do you think it's because I've been trying to make tracts again? This song describes how life is right now http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IPadSoXbp-4 

The thing is I'm in so much pain [by pain I mean more than just physically being sick] right now it's even harder than…

Praise God! The Holy Spirit has taken the blinders off of my eyes.

Prayer is the most power weapon we've got [other than the Bible]. For it doesn't matter how much we talk to a person, he/she will be blinded unless God opens up their eyes. That's why arguing is useless and why it's better to just let God take care of it. It truely is all up to Him.

I just couldn't understand why I've had a hard time understanding the Bible. I now know. I've been trying to learn…

I don't go to the church anymore [no one takes me]. But, I remember one time,before the service, they played gangum style on the screen. It creeped me out. It was probably back in like Oct., it was the first time I seen ganyum style. Alot of people actually liked it...I remember one time one of the singers did the Satanic salute.



I was so ashamed to admit it but now I can. God has forgiven me. The Bible is right,the truth does set you free. The Holy Spirit has lead me to this point…

Yesterday, I had my camcorder. I had my plush stomach out. Ms. Taylor [who we used to call Einstein but she is now officially Ms. Taylor] decided she was going to get "rough" with the stomach. I took some pictures but this was my favorite one. I'm posting this just in case you need a good laugh. Enjoy.…

I was laying down today. It was too cold to get up and I was still tired. I was talking to our Abba. I forget the discussion but I remember this coming to my mind.

We all know the rapture is very near. But, persecution seems very close as well.

Here's some encourgement. If we do so happen to be facing some kind of persecution and the rapture happens, whether it's prison or something harsher, who knows, there's good news. :)

Let's say we're being…

How beautiful is it to know about His Grace and sanctification?

Grace. We're saved. We're always going to belong to Him now. He protects us and teaches us. He loves us but also tells us what we're doing wrong.

Sanctification. We mess up. You and I sin many times a day. It's going to be like that until we go home to be with Jesus. We can try [and only succed with the help of the Holy Spirit] to do better [repent] and not sin as much. No matter what though we will…

Praise God! It just hit me.

I was talking to some people [most if not all are former JWs] awhile back online. I remember we were talking about the Trinity. I didn't understand it. How is it possible that there's people who just don't understand. Well, I think I was told it has to come to them by the Holy Spirit. They just can't understand it on their own.

I understand that now. No human can just tell someone and they automatically understand.

I…

Ok, a couple of my uncles [two of dad's brothers] came to visit today.



I was suspicious when Uncle L. mentioned during his last visit...I think he thinks that being born again is like a cult [he has said he's a Christian though].



Well, today he and uncle J. came to visit.



L. said this. Aunt P. [his sister] told him you have to be sure you're saved so you don't go to Hell. My uncle told us [my parents, uncle J. and me] that you just can't tell people they're going…

I think one of the main reasons I have trouble reading the Bible is because it's hard to get a mental image of what is going on when I read.

I don't want to have regular faith I want to have extreame faith like Elijah or Daniel. The brothern overseas have extreame faith and I admire that. It's awesome they work together with brothers and sisters in Christ and accomplish so much for His sake!

I have my book from Voice of the Martyrs "Extreme Devotion". Their…

I'm encourged by reading a few books from Voice of the Martyrs. Such encourgement has to be of the Holy Spirit. They're so strong in the Lord. I want to be given the courge like they have. No matter the threat...never deny Jesus. Facing persecution, possible death for His sake? They've rejoiced and prayed for their enemies. It doesn't matter the threat or harm. They risk it all for the sake of Christ and spreading His gospel.

I want to be that strong in the Lord. Thing is I…

I'm glad I'm alive. I realize I was so close to death.

Honestly, it helps me to appriciate life more. People try to block the very thought of dieing from their minds as much as possible. I realize though life is more than big houses and shiny cars, money and material posessions.

In today's society life is cheapened. Death is glorified.

So many people don't understand how fragile this life really is. Every breath is a gift from God. Every time…

I'm like a big kid. I like things a child would like. I get amused easily.

I like kid things. Looney Tunes [especially the Tazmanian shedevil,Taz's wife].  I like Disney's 101/102 Dalmatians and I like the Rugrats and Snoopy. My favorite Winnie the Pooh chacter is Eeyore. Although I haven't seen it in a long time. My favorite part on Sesseme Street is "Rubber Duckey". lol

I took a class in 10th grade on child development. Too bad I didn't contniue the class to…

I remember I was in the 11th grade envioronmental science class. A boy was hungrey so I gave him some chips. Big mistake. :( It turns out a little later on his arms started itching...he was allergic. I think there was cheese or something that he was allergic to.

He didn't come back to school for quite awhile. He was in the hosptial getting his stomach pumped...he could have died. I guess that's something I haven't forgiven myself for...

:sighs: I tried to be…

My parents and I went up to the mall. My mom took me into the Hallmark store. I got to pick out a few Snoopy things. :)

Anyways, one of the things I got was a plush Snoopy. He's holding Woodstock,giving him a hug. On the inside of the tag it reads "Happiness is knowing someone cares."

I can relate to that. When someone cares it really helps make us feel better. I realize so much of my life it hasn't seemed like people cared. And you know what they didn't. Not…

I'm remember stuff that has been lodged so deep into my soul. I forgot about this until very recently. I remember it wasn't only being asked if I shaved my legs...I was also told I need to wax my eyebrows....this came from my friend. That was common though to be told/asked about shaving my legs and waxing my eyebrows. It was kind of common like when a boy used to say call me nappy hair. Ether I'm going delusional or...I think  atleast one time he even made up a little song/jingle about…

I also locked up a passion that I would eventually forget about.

I was like 8 or 9. It was the 2nd grade. We went to some kind of Carnagy museum or something like that.

Anyways, it had a whole bunch of stuff. I remember hearing that we couldn't go into the big machine unless we paid for it. I think someone ended up paying for us and we got to go in it.

We got to sit down. It was dark except for a screen. They took us on a tour through the human…

I want to apolojize to everyone who has read my blogs. Forgive me for any self-pity you've seen on even just one of my blogs.

It's hard right now since I'm not only dealing with one flash back but a bunch of different ones. I realize though what's done is done. Thank you everyone who has put up with reading through things I've put on my blogs.

I guess with true healing there comes pain like a wound healing. Honestly, it does hurt. But, Jesus has found a…

What do you do?

Ok, here's the problem. I have so much built up from over the years. I can ether lock up and contniue to hold it in or realse it. Locking up won't help. Yet, if I realse it than it's like a flood pouring into my soul. I have to deal with what I've locked up inside and it's not just one event. It's like it's all coming at me at once. From the cats that got posioned to the bullies over the years. I have these flashbacks that I'm reliving through. I'm not reliving…

Is there every any time your heart breaks? That you have tears coming from your eyes?

I want to see Jesus. I can't wait until the rapture and I finally get to be in His arms. It seems like the only time I'll ever find peace is once I see Jesus.

Do you think Jesus will let me scrub the streets of gold? That way people don't have to see my face too much and I can serve.

I apolojize to everyone. I'm the black sheep in His flock. I apolijize for…