I finally understand

I finally understand why I have felt like a child trapped in pain that never truly grew up. So much has happened. I have missed my first home so much. We moved when I was 2. That is when life was good. Even though I only have a few memories I miss it. Well except when the neighbor yelled at us,the lady in the big yellow dress.

Things went wrong starting at 3. I have kept so much from people because I haven't been able to express my pain or fear properly too well verbally. I can write/put what have happened a lot easier in writing/online though.

Well,I've never been able to properly heal because every time a pain would be over a new hurt would be made. That is how it's been for the last 18 years. A lot of pain got backed up.

I sit here and am tempted to self pity. I have chronic pain and other health issues. I have hearing problems and a communication disorder. Just about every part of me has something messed up with it.

I know Jesus will use this for good though just like Romans 8:28 says.

It is a comfort that He knows every ache and every hurt.