Why am I such a mess?

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Comment by feet breath on May 29, 2012 at 9:01pm

Thank you precious sister.

 

Remain blessed as well.

Comment by Lina on May 29, 2012 at 8:41pm

Sister, I'll remember you in my prayers.  You can be sure that there are many more who pray for you each day.

Remain blessed Feet

Comment by feet breath on May 29, 2012 at 9:06am

Don't be anxious? Dear sister please can you say a prayer? For my life is one big ball of anxiety. I've had trouble with that verse since there's so much anxiety...

 

God bless you as well sister!

Comment by Lina on May 29, 2012 at 8:52am

Dear sister, you are so blessed to be where you are at this age.  My life at 20 years was so chaotic and I don't think I was as close to the Lord then as you are now.. I believe the Lord has so much for you and is preparing you for greater things.  "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your request be made known to God: and the peace of God which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." (Philipians 4 : 6-7).

God bless you sister. 

Comment by feet breath on May 28, 2012 at 9:41pm

Thanks to all three of you, thanks for caring. I'm more calmer than I was. I can really have emotional breakdowns which I have to get off my chest or it's only going to hurt me in the long run. I'm better than I was though. Things get frustrating. If as many times as I have an "emotional meltdown", if instead I kept the pain inside I'd be a very bitter and hurt person.

 

Sister, Amanda, the poem makes sence. As someone who has weaved before it makes sence. The project doesn't seem that great until it is finished.

Comment by Leonard T on May 28, 2012 at 6:13pm

May this chapter by C.H.Spurgeon encourage regarding your faith:

 

BY GRACE THROUGH FAITH

“By grace are ye saved, through faith”

(

<490208>Ephesians 2:8).

I THINK IT WELL to turn a little to one side that I may ask my reader to

observe adoringly

the fountain-head of our salvation, which is the grace of

God. “By grace are ye saved.” Because God is gracious, therefore sinful

men are forgiven, converted, purified, and saved. It is not because of

anything in them, or that ever can be in them, that they are saved; but

because of the boundless love, goodness, pity, compassion, mercy, and

grace of God. Tarry a moment, then, at the well-head. Behold the pure

river of water of life, as it proceeds out of the throne of God and of the

Lamb!

What an abyss is the grace of God! Who can measure its breadth? Who can

fathom its depth? Like all the rest of the divine attributes, it is infinite.

God is full of love, for “God is love.” God is full of goodness; the very

name “God” is short for “good.” Unbounded goodness and love enter into

the very essence of the Godhead. It is because “his mercy endureth for

ever” that men are not destroyed; because “his compassions fail not” that

sinners are brought to Him and forgiven.

Remember this; or you may fall into error by fixing your minds so much

upon the faith which is the channel of salvation as to forget the grace

which is the fountain and source even of faith itself. Faith is the work of

God’s grace in us. No man can say that Jesus is the Christ but by the

Holy Ghost. “No man cometh unto me,” saith Jesus, “except the Father

which hath sent me draw him.” So that faith, which is coming to Christ, is

the result of divine drawing. Grace is the first and last moving cause of

salvation; and faith, essential as it is, is only an important part of the

machinery which grace employs. We are saved “through faith,” but

salvation is “by grace.” Sound forth those words as with the archangel’s

trumpet: “By grace are ye saved.” What glad tidings for the undeserving!

Faith occupies the position of

a channel or conduit pipe. Grace is the

fountain and the stream; faith is the aqueduct along which the flood of

mercy flows down to refresh the thirsty sons of men. It is a great pity

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when the aqueduct is broken. It is a sad sight to see around Rome the

many noble aqueducts which no longer convey water into the city, because

the arches are broken and the marvelous structures are in ruins. The

aqueduct must be kept entire to convey the current; and, even so, faith

must be true and sound, leading right up to God and coming right down to

ourselves, that it may become a serviceable channel of mercy to our souls.

Still, I again remind you that faith is only the channel or aqueduct, and not

the fountainhead, and we must not look so much to it as to exalt it above

the divine source of all blessing which lies in the grace of God.

Never make

a Christ out of your faith

, nor think of as if it were the independent source

of your salvation. Our life is found in “looking unto Jesus,” not in looking

to our own faith. By faith all things become possible to us; yet the power

is not in the faith, but in the God upon whom faith relies. Grace is the

powerful engine, and faith is the chain by which the carriage of the soul is

attached to the great motive power. The righteousness of faith is not the

moral excellence of faith, but the righteousness of Jesus Christ which faith

grasps and appropriates. The peace within the soul is not derived from the

contemplation of our own faith; but it comes to us from Him who is our

peace, the hem of whose garment faith touches, and virtue comes out of

Him into the soul.

See then, dear friend, that the weakness of your faith will not destroy you.

A trembling hand may receive a golden gift. The Lord’s salvation can come

to us though we have only faith as a grain of mustard seed. The power lies

in the grace of God, and not in our faith. Great messages can be sent along

slender wires, and the peace-giving witness of the Holy Spirit can reach

the heart by means of a thread-like faith which seems almost unable to

sustain its own weight. Think more of H

IM to whom you look than of the

look itself. You must look away even from your own looking, and see

nothing but Jesus, and the grace of God revealed in Him.