Feet breath's Blog – July 2013 Archive (9)

Ever since I was a very little girl I've had issues.

Just being there has messed things up for people....even for other Christians I've been trouble for.

I don't even have to try to cause trouble for others. I'm very difficult,been that way since I was little...

There's so much to take in. I'm expected by society to do stuff I can't do. It gets so overwhelming.

So, many in society "get it". Most can walk wherever alone and be…

Ok,you may know I've complained before. Wondering how God is going to use me. I mean I have a sensatory disorder. If someone talks to me about something and they start yelling/talking loud I tend to shut down. And people tend to get loud whenever they find out you disagree with their view point.

Well,I've been reading David Platt's book "Radical". It's by God's Grace David didn't complicate the wording and I can understand it because a lot of books I can't understand…

Why am I here?

They died,why? Why do people have to be so cruel and have others believe the only way out is suicide?

I still don't understand why I'm alive. I'm glad I'm alive because if I would have died in late 06 or sometime in 07 [that's when 8th grade was 06-07] I wouldn't have went to Heaven.

I know God is merciful. It's by His Grace I didn't take that bottle of pills that day in the living room even though I was very…

How do you get out of a pit trap that keeps coming back? It seems like it's only a matter of time until something happens....

I know people tell you when you go through difficult things in life it's best to move on. But how do you move on when it's only a matter of time until it happens again? Wounds are re opened. I thought that life was different now. I thought there wouldn't be anymore cats in danger.

This has been going on since I was in 1st or 2nd grade.…

I have a lot of flaws. Well,I think I do have OCD as well as a flaw. Those flaws can be put into catagories.

Digestive issues. Coconut,peanuts [stangly the candy products like Reeses and Almond Joy don't have the same effect as regular products. I can breath if I eat the candy] and blackberries give me shortness of breath. Blueberries are even worse though. It is so hard to breath if I eat anything blueberry. It's more than shortness of breath. It's like someone has cut my air…

I think I understand why I have a hard time talking to anyone about the cross.

I haven't really ever had any deep and serious Christian fellowship with anyone face to face. When the once a month [and some times a month would be skipped depending on the whether] Christian club at school,Alethia,took place...that was a gathering but nothing really ever deep such as studying the cross. I don't even have that now since I graduated over 2 years ago.

I have known…

I've been listening to this song and it's been such a blessing.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=it6OOuxDTmo

I'm so excited! I know everything looks so gloomy with DOMA being defeated and so much evil getting worse and worse. Be encouraged though,brothers and sisters in the Lord! Jesus will use this for our good Romans 8:28.

We now have the opportunity to stand strong in the Lord in this…