Feet breath's Blog – May 2012 Archive (25)

⁵ For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favour is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning. (biblegateway, KJV)

Ok, as my last post on my last blog tells I wasn't having a very good night. But, praise God things are atleast a little better.

I cried this morning in bed. Guess what song came to mind? Amy Grants "Carry You". I think the Lord used to to…

It's my fault. If my mom joins the JW, it'll be my fault.

You see, I'm the one who invited the JW in the first place (they came when I was on Summer Vacation right before 1oth grade). I know it would have been worse if the JW who came last fall would have been the one to start a bible study though. Since, I probably wouldn't have been very prepared or even bothered to research much about the JW if it wasn't for the previous JW people.

But, still, it'll be my…

I'm wondering if I'm spirtually depressed or if this situation has caused be to be phyiscally depressed. Ether way my heart is filled with sorrow. It hurts to know there's people who are controlled and will refuse to listen because they're slaves to men.

Fear is paralyzing, worry makes it worse. Knowing talking to people around will only make things worse. Not knowing what to say to Jesus. It's bad enough not being good verbally but when life has the mind paralyzed as…

It comes to my mind....can my life really make a difference? It comes to mind especially when I look through pictures of when I was little. Knowing...I could have been aborted...death tried to get me many times...suicide wanted to take my life (I even looked at a bottle of pills during that time in 8th grade and thoughts of suicide went through my head). But, praise be to God I'm still here. Seeing pictures of a little baby on her first birthday, getting kissed in front of a laundrey mat by…

I know I've said I'm afraid of the elder and intimidation. But, I think God has shed light on this situation.

I'm afraid I'm not going to be able to answer them (especially on the deity of Christ). I'll make Christ look bad and I'd be totally humiliated in front of the people for not knowing the right answer.

So, as the truth has/is being revealed I'm not as scared (still a little atleast though).

 pray God sheds more light on this issue and…