Brandon soileau's Blog (12)

"Thou shalt not use the name of the Lord thy God in vain." Exodus 20:7

    In today's meaning of the word "vain" it holds two-meainings in the modern-dictionary: one meaning is having an over-inflated opinion of one's self, and the other meaning simply means useless or void, with no result. For the sake of this blog, I will go with the latter of the two-defintions, though I'm unsure of what the interpretation of vain was in the times of Moses. Though I was not around in the…

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I was reading and studying the book of Matthew this evening when I came across matthew chapter 11. This whole chapter was intriguing to me because it talked about John's great role of pointing out people's sin, and leading them to God. Jesus also told the crowds that there was no one man that had fulfilled his God-given purpose better than John. In previous verses in the chapter, Jesus reminds the crowds of what they were expecting in John the Baptist, not a double-minded, worldy man, not…

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A litle bit earlier, I was hit with this almost uncontrollable urge to commit a common sin to me. This particular sin is one that has plagued me more so than any other sin in my life, and has been with me a large-portion of my life. As I got into the shower, I prayed to God, in repetition, rebuking the spirits in Jesus name, to leave my mind. After several-minutes of asking God to relieve me of this urge and cast-out the unclean spirit within me, I attempted to pray in tongues, but with…

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Jesus says that where two or three are gathered in my name, there shall I be also. From that passage in the Bible, I take it as the more people that pray together for something in God's will, the Lord will surely be there. I am still struggling in my christian walk; it seems the closer I get to God, the more I start to screw up again, and fall back into my sins, and deliberately at that. I have gone through my life with a fine-toothed comb, and removed many things in my life which would…

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Over the years I have accrued much scar-tissue to my heart, mind, spirit and soul. I have heard about Jesus and his atoning sacrifice and saving power my entire life, but up until a year-and-a-half ago I had never taken it very seriously. I can't remember the time when I got saved, but I do know I gave my life to Jesus at a young age. Since I gave my life to Jesus, initially, I have backslidden more times than I can possibly remember, and have been what is known as a "lukewarm christian" at…

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I envy everyone that is truly saved by the grace of God. I'd like to think that i'm saved, but I can't really say for sure. I mean, I did say the words that came to my heart, my confession of wanting Jesus as my savior, and how I am a sinner in need of a savior, but somehow, I can't seem to stay on the "wagon". I feel like whenever I go on sinning, and neglect God for a period of time, I need to re-commit my life to Jesus, (I've done this more times than I care to remember.) I want so bad to…

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I know God loves me uncondtionally, no matter how many times I mess up and backslide. I know God will openly invite me back into his presence if I will just repent and ask forgiveness of my sins... I long to have a relationship with Jesus christ based on good-intentions, not just using him because I need a savior. I know Jesus came to this earth to save the human-race from their sins and death, but I don't want the only reason I come to him to be for that reason. I feel really selfish, and I…

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Today, I was visiting an elder from the Chruch I attend. I had went to visit him initially because I was having some problems in my spirit life. Well, after much needed clarification and guidance, we had a long prayer session, just him and I. My friend and elder encouraged me to pray for the Holy Spirit to manifest within me, and to encourage him to feel me with power. Well, after a few minutes of praying, I wasn't recieving the spirit, because I had some doubt and unbelief dwelling in my soul.… Continue

Where, God are you at? I prayed to you seeking salvation, but I don't feel saved. Maybe the way I feel like that is because you won't ever talk to me, or bear witness to my spirit. I walk through everyday, praying and reading my Bible, and at times, I have neglected you, but I always feel lonely, and unsatisfied. I feel like you just watch me, but have no intention of ever intervening or comforting me. The only proof of your spirit I have within me is the written law on my heart and mind,… Continue

One issue that has always overwhelmed me is that of legalism. I know that in Old Testament days, the Jews were required to follow all of God's laws down to the proverbial "T", and if they didn't, they were endanger of death. The only atonement for sins back then was the prescribed sin offering before God, (which was only a temporary atonement.) Many generations later, Jesus was sent to be the new covenant, and new atonement for sins of both Jew and Gentile; and also the release of his people… Continue

I could have sworn that I accepted Jesus Christ into my life; I mean, I know I confessed with my mouth and believed in my heart. So, right then, the holy spirit should have entered my life, right? I should have access to the father now, right? I am lying in my bed right now, so irritated and flustered with the whole thought that God just won't acknowledge me. Why do I think this? Because ever since I got saved, the only Godly experience I've witnessed is the imprinting of God's laws on my heart… Continue

A few months ago, I watched this video on the after life. On this video, a certain, proclaimed minister witnessed an experience God had given him in which god showed him Hell. Now, this video got me to thinking about my situation, and where I stood with God. Quite honestly, this video scared me to death, because it portrayed such a vivid picture of Hell, and told things of it that I never would have imagined. More or less, this video scared me straight, and made me want to do something about…

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