I did make an attempt...

As I've been thinking about things that have happened with the bullying and stuff...I remembered something.

I was in a very dangeous state of mind. I was suicidal but I kept my feelings to myself for the most part. I liked talking to people online because I figured they live far away,they can't tell on me.

So, I kept alot of the pain inside. I didn't like razors so I didn't cut. But, I did scratch myself. What was dangerous about that was people wouldn't see the pain I did because the scratch marks would go away...unlike cutting which can be seen. People probably would have been more aware if I started cutting instead.

Anyways,I did make an attempt. I put my head on the bus window. I hoped the bus driver would hit her brakes since I know it's happened before. That was my attempt at suicide...I think I tried it atleast a few times.

Please if anyone out there is thinking about suicide who is reading this please don't. Your life is very precious,you're made in the image of God. There is hope. Jesus gives life,He will help you overcome such a death sentence and set you free.

American King James Version If the Son therefore shall make you free, you shall be free indeed.

http://bible.cc/john/8-36.htm