As we all know I was saved on November 8th of 2010. Praise the lord but now we are having a problem. I will be 21 on June 19th and the urge to go back to old ways spend time with old friends and go back the girl I used to be instead of continuing work on the woman I am now is pulling harder than ever. My actual birthday is on a Sunday which at first I saw as a sign that I needed to get baptized and saved completely But now after putting some more thought into it the only reason 21 is considered to be the birthday where all sin breaks loose is because of the liquor industry and their push for sales not that at 21 everyone’s dna changes and they the sudden urge to be drunk. So no my delimi. My family dinner and all that will of course be on my birthday on Sunday but then there is a club we used to go to back in the day, me and my friends it’s not to wild in a nice neighborhood where you can go and have a few drinks. I had one shot the other day for the first time sense Halloween and it didn’t feel as wrong as I expected it to. To also think back in the day even biblical times they drank wine all the time and still do in Europe. So maybe that isn’t so bad in moderation. But I’m still not sure about the club thing the way I look at it the man I’m meant to marry isn’t going to be standing there in the first place but then to see me dancing provocatively or wearing revealing clothing and yes you can say go to the club and just don’t do those things but at the same time it is a pull marketing or not this is my 21st birthday and vie been working out so my body is finally getting to where I want it to be for the first time in my life so I’m going to want to show it off. I’m not sure what to do I’m still looking to find a church home to belong to where they have a strong connection to young people but that also has a strong singles and women’s ministry because I need direction in my life bad and I feel the pull but sometimes we are just completely lost. There aren’t many people in my life I can go to with this issue so I come here because you all are always so open and honest. It hasn’t been that long and I know I’ve changed and I’m doing better even with my slip ups all I want is to make my lord happy but at the same time I’m fighting the human instinct to do wrong is there levels of wrong that are ok what did some of you do for your 21st birthdays that you don’t look back on and regret? Please let me know I value your input.