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Mom is in rehab nursing home she was diagnosed with lung cancer last month at the hospital.At first a few weeks back mom sounded fine things went downhill since.Nurses lied last few weeks said shes doing ok. Yesterday and today Im told otherwise she isnt shes declining, lost lot of weight in pain.Oncologist was there mom was being stubborn my god I tried to encourage mom, Ive prayed, had people pray.Im an only child, not close to her family, dad isnt in picture, single 5 yrs no outlet or human support whatsoever.I know about Jesus and God and have talked with them.I work 5 days a week off 2. I wanted to die before mom Ive been through alot in my 41 yrs here.I was verbally abused, musunderstood, seldom understood.Kids were cruel in school.Mom had 2 nervous breakdowns and an accident when I was 8 to 13 yrs old, my dad wanted to marry her she told him no, aunt wouldnt take me to McDonalds at 10, wouldnt get me a soda at 12, I was kicked out at 15 by an aunt, lost 30 lbs off starvation working for uncle my first job at 16, I was expelled from school at 17, robbed in home invasion at 19, was married 2006 to 2011 an inlaw problems lies, betrayal, friends, killed the marriage, people who helped me either left or I left eventually, never got much sympathy for all Ive been through.People say I dont know and I dont care too much sick of it.Lack of compassion, selfish, biased, greed in this world.I wanted to die before mom Ive told her I wished she hadnt had me.I want better heaven with Jesus and God lifes hard and Ive always had little to no support misunderstood alot.
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Comment by Daniel Bryan Curry on September 15, 2016 at 5:18am
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Thank you
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Comment by Tammy on September 15, 2016 at 2:27am
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My dear brother Daniel. Please know I'm so very sorry for the loss of your mama. The loss of our mamas are a horrible transition in our lives. I know it was for me & my brother & we were both grown. That was just the awesome Godly influence that she had in our lives. Daddy worked all the time so she led us to that firm foundation in Him. Don't discrediting anything my daddy did because had he not done what he did, she couldn't have done what she did. Always remember their awesome incredible times you shared together. Don't sit around thinking I wish I would had, could had, what if, what if I had not, did I spend enough time doing this, doing that & it can drive u insane. Just know brother that you did everything within your own strength & power endowed by your Savior that you possibly could do for your mama while you was with her. He blessed you with these years to spend with her alone without the other drama of in-laws & other distractions. He allowed u to share her last days with you. Her only son. She knew you loved her & she left this world knowing you loved the Lord. What more could a mama ask for brother? I know she left this world being very proud. The next couple of weeks is going to be tough but when u come back online & need to talk feel free to hit me up. I'll be here for you. We can pray together, chat or study the Word. May the Lord give u the strength thru this time.
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Thank you
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I do read bible verses daily, tomorrow Im off they have activities church so Ill be there. Mom passed away 12:55 pm today she was a nurse just hadnt worked almost a decade Nov 2007. Thanks for realizing my own very rough life.
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In our lifetime, most of us will face the harsh reality of seeing our parents die. It's not a pleasant memory but a reality for most of us. I have lost my mama. That was the most devasting thing I've ever experienced in my entire life. As the mother of a daughter that's an addict, I thought I had lost my daughter one night. Praise the Lord, she was safe. However, I literally mourned her for a small while until hearing from her. I can tell u that the pain I felt losing my mother was nothing in comparison to losing my child. What I'm trying to share is that as a child, that is something you should never want your mother to experience is to lose a child. I can't even imagine the heartache & recovery of moving on after that. In my heart, I don't believe the nurses lied. What I feel is what they seen was an elderly lady with lung cancer who still smoked & was doing as well as can be expected in the situation. I think a nurses job is hard & they would not truly intentionally lie to a patient's relative.
I'm sorry you went through so much trauma as a young man. I know on a couple of discussions, you have said u don't go to church because of work. If you could go, where would you go? I guess I'm just trying to get a feel for your doctrine & beliefs. How often are you in the Bible studying it for yourself? After you talk to Christ & God, do you follow that with studying His Word to learn more about Him & know more of what His will is for your life?
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Will do so have been talking to Christ and God
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Thanks at least you offered encouragement and understood.
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