Nothing, absolutely nothing is happening which God is not aware of. He knows you and He will never let you go. You belong to Him now. He bout you with the precious blood of Christ. All the trials are allowed to help you exercise your faith and that by them your patience may be perfected. Let your hope be in the Lord.
Your joy depends and your level of abiding in Chirst. Chrit has done everything so you can rejoice, but you have to remain in Hi, in His word. It is impossible for Satan a defeated fowe to destroy you. You belong to the King and a defeated fallen angel is no match for our Lord. There is no fight or strugle between them.
Fellowship, study and pray. Much love to you my sis. You are in my prayers adn so is your son.
My good friend Jess tells me you are a good friend of hers but than she tells me i can be as mean as i want to be with you. Should we make sure she is taking her medication? hahaaha I love that wild woman. hehe.
Since you love music i will hook you up with this song.