I'm here with a specific purpose and mission: To live 100% with Jesus.
Long story short: I was born again almost nine years ago. For the entirety of those 9 years, when Jesus tried to change my heart, I would keep resisting, kicking him backward, and insist on doing things my way. It resulted in some bad results that affected family, friends, and my own well being.
I am here to
1) Finally figure out how to let Jesus INTO my heart, as opposed to AROUND my heart. The holy spirit is with me, but I never received his love, because I kept blocking him out, out of anger.
2) Live in Jesus.
I look forward to collaborating with you all.
Awesome long story short. It says it all brother.
I like your mission, it’s a good one indeed. I received Christ as my Saviour almost 15 years ago, was on fire for the Lord for a few years, then slowly slipped back into my old life. The main reason for this was because I was not renewing my mind, which is such a crucial step in dying to self and letting Christ live in me.
When we are born again, our spirits are completely new and joined with God (Col 6:17 "But he that is joined unto the Lord is one spirit") but we have to train our minds and bodies to line up with our new spirit. There is a constant battle - our bodies and soul ganging up against our spirit, not to mention the devil standing in the way. But, in Jesus name, we can overcome and win the fight!
Please check out Curry Blake’s New Man and DHT training, this will help you figure everything out for sure. I can’t even begin to explain how much it has helped my family and I.
It’s like re-discovering a gospel worth dying for, and living for it.
There are a LOT of people who did me wrong...that God favored...that I spent years holding a grudge against God for. By getting angry, I alienated a lot of people, and hurt myself more. I am not saying I am happy about this...what I am saying is...God wanted to help, and I flipped him off.
I'm still not happy with what happened, but I have chosen to let it go. I'm not happy because I saw people who were much more blessed by God than I was, and I asked God "Why not me? What makes THEM different?".
As of now, I have chosen to ignore those thoughts, cast them to the side, and put success principles to work. One such principle is to allow Jesus to change my heart, so that I stop being a violent grudge bearer.
Once Jesus enters me without me blocking him, and I come to know God's love, the rest should click into place, and all I have to do is work my bones off, under his wisdom and guidance, to get to where I want to go. The LOVE of God is the missing ingredient, and I need to obtain it once and for all
I understand where you are coming from and it’s great that you have forgiven them. Although, if they did you wrong, I’m not so sure it was God favoring them, but obviously, I don’t know the circumstances. The good news is, once we were born again, our hearts were changed, but our minds weren’t.
Jesus has given us new hearts, it’s up to us to do the rest, like choosing to ignore those thoughts you mentioned, that’s a good start. We all have heart knowledge (in our spirit’s) that needs to become head knowledge (renewing the mind). It takes time, but it is the only way to die to self and truly get to place where we can say, “It’s no longer I that live but Christ that lives in me”.
We can’t live a resurrection life without dying first and if you try, as I have, it becomes extremely frustrating. Everything God wants to give us, He has already given. We just have to realize that He has, believe it and let Him loose!
2Cor 5:17 Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.
2Peter 1:3 According as his divine power hath given unto us all things that pertain unto life and godliness, through the knowledge of him that hath called us to glory and virtue:
Choose to Believe He has given you all things and keep on fighting!
Be blessed! Dave
Awesome story Friend