I want to glorify Jesus in my sufferings

I feel broken or getting very close to it. Not in a way like when I was 14 [bullied to the point of being suicidal]. No, this is different...By broken I mean mentally and physically. I have to accept the fact that I can't do this on my own. I'm not strong, I realize that. It takes me longer to understand things. When I was in school the other students may have got it but it would possibly take me longer to grasp. So much of my life I've been socially clumsy. I'd cause trouble even if I didn't mean it. Just being there seemed to make things unplesent for others. I guess that's one reason why I have a poor self esteem.

Anyways,I'm also physically broken. What's the word? I'm not sure if "it's humbling", not sure if that's the way to describe it or not. Different things have caused me to slow down and think. I used to stay up until 2 or 3 in the morning. The Holy Spirit helped me to, slowly but eventually,go to bed much earlier. Now I go to bed around 10 something. I have problems with my legs. It hurts to put really anything on them. Even sitting  a Bible [it's got a little weight to it] on my lap hurts. I've got bad circulation. My feet get cold easily as well.

I guess it is true. You get closer to Jesus when going through sufferings. I want to glorify Jesus through my sufferings. I want to help others, to be able to sympathize with them in their moments of trials and pain.