After months of on again off again threats to leave, my husband finally left. Actually, I prompted him out the door by throwing his stuff out after he met with his girlfriend again on the sly. He freely admits I have improved and have done all I can to help this marriage but still refuses to return. He says he loves her and that he doesn't see any way our marriage can be restored. He won't even try and that's what really hurts! My husband is a good man. He is just making some very poor decisions based on our previous behaviors. Unfortunately he apparently had changed his alliance to her before I even knew we were even anywhere near this point. Now I am left dealing with the aftermath and the emotional needs of two daughters, 10 and 17. This has been going on all school year but he actually left and refused to return only 4 weeks ago.
I am losing my mind. I can only seem to do the things that push him further away. My work has suffered and now I catch myself dragging the girls into things that I shouldn't. I have never had a strong faith but have begun to seek more of God's work through His word. Please, I have never asked anyone to pray for me before this happened. Please pray for me and my husband as well as my daughters. Please send us the strength to get through the days and nights. Please let me know the word of God in a personal way. I have been praying daily that my husband finds the peace he needs.