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What do I do?
Ok, I realize the obsticle that's in my way.
I really don't want to tell my parents that in 8th grade I:
1.Became friends with someone online [disobeyed mom,went into a chatroom] and that could have been dangerous.
2.Did self-harm to myself. Not only that but I made an attempt at suicide because of the bullying.
Mom has asked before "What have you done so wrong?" Today the pastor at church asked who's made a mistake. I put my hand up. Mom told me to put it back down. My parents were there for my baptizim.
She thinks I'm a 'good" girl. I'm not. I've done some really bad things....she just doesn't know it. For I've done alot of things my parents don't realize.
How can I tell them some major things I've done wrong when they are under alot of stress? They can't handle the stress of knowing I was going to comitt suicide...I remember mom's face when she first found out in 8th grade that I was suicidal [she never found out about the self harm/attempt at suicide]...I don't want to ever put her through that again. I pretty much didn't bring it up afterwards.
I love what the pastor said. "I baptize you in the Name of the Father who loves you,the Son who died for your sins and the Spirit that lives inside of you." I love hearing that come from someone face to face. That Jesus died for my sins.
I want it to be acknowledged by the person I'm communicating with that I have sin. Not "Oh,well you're a good person." I need to tell somebody what I've done face ot face. How else can I possibly heal after bottling it up for so long? I've bottled stuff up most of my life...
What do I do? What would be the needed step I need to take in this healing process?
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Permalink Reply by feet breath on
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Daivd, I'm not trying to replace church fellowship. It just helps to be open. I can't seem to find anyone to tell. When I arrive at the church I only have like around 5 minutes until they start church. I need longer than 5 minutes. I don't want to rush the other person and I don't want to be rushed. It'd be wonderful to tell the pastor. Time is the issue though. It'd be wonderful to just sit down and be able to have as much time as I need to talk to somebody. That's what I've been wanting. To find somebody in church to talk to. Problem is if someone doesn't say something I probably won't say anything to them. I need them to start the conversation first. Than it's hard to keep me quiet after I get on a subject especially something like this.
It'd be nice if someone asked "Do you need somebody to talk to?"
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Permalink Reply by David Velasquez on
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:) Love and blessings little sis.
I know there is a group here called:
For Women Only
http://www.allaboutgod.net/group/forwomenonly
Check it out beloved. God bless you.
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Thank you friend. :) God bless you as well.
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Permalink Reply by ribbon on
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Feetleaves,
If not telling your mama is eating at you , maybe you should tell her. It seems you had a rough life that your mama didnt witness. Your Jesus is helping you through the pain from the abuse you got from the bullys. You did things that she wouldnt aprove of and you seem to be sorry for it. You mentioned the word 'testimonie' .. if this is your testimonie then i would tell your mom. ... I dont ever remember my mom being in church... but if a preacher was to ask if anyone made mistakes I can picture and hear her say ... raise that hand up higher janie higher higher ... lol. I did a lot of wrong but my mom knew and loved me anyway.
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Alienated. I think it's best I tell someone else first. I have to be open up to them first of all for it's easier to tell Christians in church I don't really know too well than to tell my family. Why? Because they're my family and that connection with family would make it harder. Mom would get more upset[since she'd be so worried] than say the lady I've asked at the front desk for stuff like prayer cards at church.
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A song for you J~ (Alinated) and Feet.
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Thank you. I have a question. Why did this come up in the lyrics "sacred and blameless"? I thought humans had sin.
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Permalink Reply by Leonard T on
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When we come to Jesus and receive Him as Savior asking Him to forgive us of our sins we can be assured that our sins have been paid for, removed and replaced by the holiness and righteousness of Jesus. Though we still live in the fallen flesh we, once we come to Jesus and are born again, receive a new heart and are indwelt by the very presence of God Himself.
Lord Bless,
LT
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All ok. That's cool. Thanks for clearing up any confusion.
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