I'm starting this discussion to find out how others have dealt with unforgiveness. How you overcame it, what was the result of it and so forth.
I'm currently struggling with unforgiveness. I know without a doubt that forgiving frees me. Forgiving them allows God to start working on my behalf. He said vengeance is His. Sometimes I would say it, I forgive him but then bitter memory will come to me and I would be angered all over again.
I'm back to my fasting lifestyle. But more than ever. I have a new hunger for the Lord. I am so determined to know His will for my life. I'm back to the beginning of when I first said yes, the lonely walk when diligently seeking the Lord.
Sometimes I wake up and don't know who I am. Yes, I also lost my identity in Christ.
So I'm not only dealing with unforgiveness and anger but to restore my identity, my power, my authority, my confidence, and my self-esteem.
I was broken before the Lord, the sadness was released. I have since been led to a book on Totally Forgiving yourself which has been a tremendous blessing. And I try to apply it to my life. Sermons at my church, testimonies from young ladies at my church who've been through a similar trial, being ministered to. It's like God is planting all these tools in my way to help me. He sees what I'm struggling with and I asked him to search my heart and see that I want to be free from it all. He's a faithful God and He is not a man that He should Lie.
I KNOW this process is taking me to my next. My next season I can't walk into it with unforgiveness and rage.
What I KNOW overcomes what I FEEL. What I know is imprinted in my spirit. What my eyes can't see, I still believe.
How have you dealt with it, how did you overcome it?