First and foremost, pray pray pray. I was convicted of being very angry at someone. I went into prayer and laid my heart before the LORD. I laugh now when I remember what I said at first with my hands in fists...even mad that I had to pray about it, all the while feeling that I shouldn't have to...after all they were down right mean and hateful to me, I didn't deserve that! Well..............at least that's what I thought.
I'll never forget that day, EVER. I started out in prayer thinking that I was so above what they did to me, until He filled it with love overflowing for that person, while at the same time revealing my own heart to me. Stay in prayer as long as it takes. Someone once said [can't remember who], but they said: "You cannot hate someone that you are praying for."
More importantly, I was changed, not the situation or the other person, but me. There is a peace that I can't describe that will fill you.
You begin looking through different eyes. I think of Peter....cutting off the soldiers ear, in the heat of the moment. I imagine him to be such a strong fisherman, standing before Jesus with his chest kind of puffed out, saying how he'd never ever deny Him, then doing so as the cock crowed for the third time. Then we do a fast forward to Peter throwing off his coat and jumping off the boat to see Christ after he was resurrected. I imagine him gulping sea water, swimming as fast as he could towards His Savior. That's how I feel like some days....just swimming as fast as I can to Him, especially today.
Then we get a Peter who was in the upper room and the disciples preaching the Gospel save 3,000 in that day, after they received the Holy Spirit. Oh what a wonderful portrayal of God's glory.
And even after that, Paul had to confront Peter publicly. Keep pushing through by Prayer, the Word, and fellowship.
I too get irritated about some of the same stuff continually. What I notice is that it reminds me to pray continually. Pray for those that irritate me. Things that may cause me to think about wrong thoughts. Our flesh pulls at us but, we remain in prayer and vigil about what pushes our "buttons". LT hit the pattern of repair that I try to work on in his first comment. My weakness keeps me closer to God. Some great thoughts here for me from Watchman, Amanda and Seek. Love thinking about scripture and putting myself there in the moment with Jesus and the disciples. That helps me.
Sure is nice having wonderful people in my life.
Oh yeah. When I was taking it, the pill gave me all kinds of mood swings and other symptoms. The best thing to do is talk to your doctor. That's not all the pill controlled, but you'll thank me for not saying what it affected. My dr couldn't believe it either. Maybe there's a different prescription something not quite so strong? They've made strides recently, your doctor may have new and better ideas.
If it makes you feel better, I'm taking a medication that removes some of my filters. I've mostly said funny things. Thank the Lord!
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