Satan's obstacles

For a few years now, I've had in the back of head an idea. An idea I have no doubt originated from God. This idea was to help people understand prophesy. As I have already many times before pointed out: I am not an expert in prophesy. I just want to convey to people what was made clear to me by God. Finally the Lord guided me here, to this group and suddenly I saw my way clear to a platform, a method of obeying His command to me. On Monday morning I started a group called "prophesy" to begin discussing the topic of Revelation (for now) and perhaps move on to other prophesies in the Bible. I tell you, from the moment that I typed the last fullstop in my opening message to my group I could feel it: self doubt, inadequasy, thoughts flashing through my mind that I am not good enough to be doing this, not learned enough, that this is a huge task and am I really sure I want to do this? I have heard it said that the closer we move towards God, and the more involved we become in His work, the harder the devil will try to pull you away. Never before have I seen this truth in action like I did this week! All of a sudden, my computer is giving problems. All of a sudden my modem doesn't always want to stay online. and then now, the latest and greatest onslaught! The devil knows my weakness is pain. I could never handle pain very well. it makes me impossible to live with, a real old cow. I now, out of the blue since yesterday developed an extremely painfull mouth absess. The pain is so extreme that no matter what I take for it, it doesn't go away. Applying heat to it helps a little but as soon as I remove the compress the pain flares up again. I'm typing this blog and my earlier message with only one hand so that I can keep my hot water bottle firmly against my face! The point I'm trying to make through my non-sensical ramblings is that i am under attack. i need prayer. I have a message to deliver and i don't know how i'mgoing to deliver it without God's help. Please pray for me to keep my head on straight and my thoughts coherent. Pray witth me for God's power to flow through me and send this excruciating pain back to where it came from.