God shed His mercy on me!!! Read on and You will hear part of my story.

A little over a year ago my daughter came to me and told me that she had been sexually abused by my husband several times over a period of years. After 13 years of marriage you can imagine how devastated I was. I knew he had been emotionally abusive towards me but i would have never thought he would abuse her.

After breaking down in tears and literally hitting the floor from the amount of pain in my heart I contacted law enforcement. My 5 children and I left our home immediately with nothing but the clothes on our backs. I had no money or resources at the time but I was determined to protect her from any further abuse. We bagan cooperating with the prosecutor, he was indicted on the charges and he filed for a divorce. Soon after a warrant was issued for his arrest he died. This was so devastating to my children and me for so many reasons. The entire ordeal was so painful but his death hurt us so much. I have felt every emotion there is to feel and I have been so numb I couldn't feel anything. After being a stay at home mom and devoted wife for over 13 years it is very overwhelming to find yourself with only the clothes you and children are wearing and no place to sleep at night. Luckily, family members took us in. This has completely changed the person that I used to be in so many ways. It has NOT made me bitter but rather a better person. I could have chosen to allow it to consume me but instead I have allowed myself to beome closer to God and grow stronger. I have forgiven him for everything just as God forgives us.
When bad things happen in our lives it is up to us to react positively. Things happen that we can't control and we don't understand but instead of questioning the reasons why I chose to pull me and my children up from the ashes and learn from my experiences. I have learned many lesssons through it all and I continue to learn. God has a plan for our lives and He is capable of guiding us thru the toughest of circumstances if we open our eyes and follow His directions thru life. I have been able to relocate and start again with my children. It has not been easy on any of us but because of HIs mercy we continue to move passed this one day at a time. I pray that I never forget where I came from. I will always remember each baby step that I took along the way to get to where I am. With each baby step God was there holding my hand and ever time I wanted to just lay down and give up the fight God was there to show me that I was strong enough to do all things thru HIM.

Regardles of what happens in your life I promise you that God can see you thru it. Never fear the shadows. They simply remind us that there is a light nearby. That light is Jesus Christ! Seek Him and you will find Him!

I don't tell my story because I want pity. I tell my story to encourage others that there is a GoD who is strong enough to move any mountain but sometimes it is His will to help us climb the mountain rather than move the mountain. Don't question His plan for your life just rest assured you are in His hands and He will never leave you. I could write a book on my experiences thru this painful time in my life. God is working in my life. He is teaching me something new each day. I still shed tears but I don't shed those tears in vain. I still have pain in my heart but there are also many heartprints on it that have been left there by the very few people who have been there for me. Don't ever give up!!! Seek Him and ye shall find HIM!