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Comment by LucyP on September 29, 2011 at 4:39pm

{{{{{hugs}}}}}} Nopes, he likely wont be happy, but sometimes gotta be tough love. Love you sis. x glad you got your mum there :D

Comment by Fede <3 on September 29, 2011 at 10:24am

Thank u chris and lucy :) your absolutely right. God did give me the strength to be calm when talking to him and not To give into the "I love u and miss you" this time. It was the first time we have realy talked in months soso I kinda seen he was only telling me all those things so I would agree to settling it without him having to take a drug test. I hope this will be a wake up for him and he can put his old life behind him. No he wasn't my first love but was the only reason I chose to stay here in Kentucky. Now my mother bless her heart is staying here for me so I will not be alone. Our entire family is in Tennessee and since he is the father and paternity has been established I can not leave state unless I have soul custody. However leaving is not my biggest concern its emmas well being. if it is gods will for me and emmas dad to be a family then God will make sure her father's temper is controled and off of drugs. Thank you all for your prayers.I can't thank u enough. And lucy your right. Leaving emma with others is more of a mommy fear than anything. She showed me that when I put her in the nursery for the first time at church. I thought she would be terrified and cry the whole time but when I came back to get her she was having so much fun playing she didn't even notice I had walked in haha. God says what's impossible with man is possible with God. So I know he can put something in her dads heart and he will be saved. his visistations I have requested to be supravized. I have a feeling he's not gonna be very happy with me but this is for Emma and the only battle where I truly belived I could not do myself but have to let god to take control. and I thank god for having to go through this because although is has been far from easy, has brought me close to him: ) love u guys and I pray god will bless u both a hundred times more than u both have blessed me: )

Comment by LucyP on September 29, 2011 at 5:38am

p.s i was just thinking that emma is the only light/good thing in your exes world right now by sounds of it, just know that Gods will, will be. Whatever happens don't lose faith, as we cannot foresee what will be, or what the outcome of anything is, even if we think something seems totally wrong. Saying that my kids dad was given the chance and never took it, so once they were 16 they went and met him themselves and I think they werent too impressed, they had to learn for themselves if he was true to his word/etc, they love him for being their dad, but he is 48 and still v immature and self centred, still does drugs, still hits his girlfriends, never sends a b/day card etc. Anyway, I digress, you have enough on your plate hehe, still praying for you girl, praying for Emma, and praying for your ex. God Bless.

Comment by LucyP on September 29, 2011 at 3:06am

Hey lil sis, britley, you said im so confused i dont think you need to be, you know that while this guy is on drugs and all the things you say that you won't go back with him, of course you love him, he's your babys father and your first love?, the things he says will cut you like a knife, he is trying different ways to win you round, its not surprising thats what people do, espec people who like to manipulate and control the situation, he tried the nice way and tried the hard way, from what you say this guy has had a rotten childhood and he is blessed you understand and are praying for his salvation. Congrats on moving into your new home. I be praying that the court case and everything works out ok, dont worry too mch about leaving Emma, its all part of her learning to grow to be left with others at times, ready for when she starts little school :D we all feel that aching tug when we first have to leave our kids, its only natural but she'll be fine :D Of course, re the outcome only jesus knows whats his will, do you have such a thing as supervised visits, i would think that if anything that would be what your ex should get, that way, hes not going to be using visits to get to you, and if he truly wants to see Emma he will stick to whatever arrangement , it will be on him, of course God knows what will be the best long term outcome here, so dont worry little sis, you are a smashing mum, just try to rest and give your worries to jesus, (i know you do), praying for you and emma over this time love you sis. xx

Comment by a servant (Chris) on September 28, 2011 at 11:39pm

Britley

Hold on little sister.  The enemy would tell you anything to get you off course w/ God.  Do not allow it any foothold.  It is a good thing to have legal documents, no matter what you hear.  Your attorney is on yours and Emma's side, you need that protection, no matter what you are promised by anyone.  Remember what got you here to begin w/.  I will also pray for him and his family, but you need the legal things done right.  You need the protection that God is giving you.  One way you will be able to see change is, he will not mind giving you what you are asking for.  Based on actions he took in the past.  Still praying for you little sister