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HEY, ITS ALOT ABOUT GOD I DONT KNOW AN WHAT I DO KNOW IM CONFUSED. MY PARENTS WASNT CHURCH PEOPLES SO I GREW UP WITH PEOPLES TAKING ME TO CHURCH WITH THEM. I GOT THIS FRIEND WHO NOW HAS CHANGED HER LIFE OVER TO GOD THATS TELLING ME THAT UNTIL I CATCH THE HOLY GHOST IM NOT SAVED... I THOUGHT IF I CONFESS WITH MY MOUTH THAT JESUS IS MY LORD AN SAVIOR AN REPEANT FOR MY SINS I WAS SAVED. ITS LIKE NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TRY TO SHOW HER IM SAVED SHE TELLS ME THAT WITHOUT THE HOLY GHOST IM NOT SAVED. A FEW YEARS AGO I EXCEPTED CHRIST IN MY HEART FOR THE FIRST TIME AND IT WAS A JOYFUL FEELING FOR ME, EVERYTHING THAT WAS WRONG WAS FINDALY GOING RIGHT. I WASNT CURSING, I HAD NO WORRIES ABOUT TOMORROWS DINNER OR BILLS, AND I WAS TAKING MY KIDS TO BIBLE STUDY AN CHURCH, AND OTHERS WAS NOTICING THE CHANGE IN ME AN STARTED CALLIN ME CHURCH LADY.... AN BEFORE I NOTICED I WAS SLOWING DOWN GOING TO CHURCH AN THE CURSE WORDS WERE APPEARING MORE AN MORE, SO I WAS BELEIVIN THAT WITHOUT THE HOLY GHOST I DONT HAVE THE BLOCKAGE I NEED TO KEEP SATAN AWAY. I BEEN MARRIED SINCE 2004 AN I WAS THE HAPPIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD, MY HUSBAND WAS WORKING I WAS IN SCHOOL, WE COULDNT WAIT TO COME HOME TO EACH OTHER... THEN HE GOT LAID OFF AN I HAD TO FRONT THE BILLS AN IV SAID THINGS TO MAKE HIM REGRET NOT WORKING, SO NOW IM NOT WORKING AND I FEEL HE IS TAKING ADVANTAGE OF IT. ITS LIKE SATAN HAVE CAME AN STOLEN THE PERSON I MARRIED. HE HAVE HAD AN AFFAIR ON ME ON SEVERAL OCCASION, I SAY THINGS TO HURT HIM FEELINGS AN WHILE HE SUPPOSE TO BE AT HIM MOM HOUSE UNTIL WE RECONSAL HE IS CREATING MORE PROBLEMS BY HAVING AFFAIRS. I NEVER ONCE THOUGHT ABOUT CHEATING ON HIM. IN 2007 NOVEMBER I FOUND OUT ABOUT THE FIRST AFFAIR, I AGREED THAT I WOULD FORGIVE AN 4GET, SO MAY OF 2008 I FOUND OUT ABOUT THE SECOND AFFAIR, NOW SINCE AUGUST UP UNTIL NOW IM DEALING WITH HIM SEEING THE CURRENT GIRL. I DONT KNOW WHERE I WENT WRONG I JUST WISH THIS ALL WAS A NIGHTMARE. I STOP TELLING HIM TO GET OUT WHEN I FIND TEXT MSG FROM HER BECAUSE IM GIVING HIM TO HER, SO NOW EVERY ARGUEMENT HE RUSHES TO PACK HIM THINGS AN LEAVE AN DONT STAY TO HIS MAMA HOUSE. AND I FEEL SO GUILTY WHEN HE IS GONE AN I LONG FOR HIM FOR THE SAKE OF OUR THREE KIDS. I DONT KNOW IF THIS HAVE SOMETHING TO DO WITH ME BACKSLIDDING BUT PLEASE HELP, I CRIE EVERYDAY AN MY KIDS ASK ME WATS WRONG. I DONT TRUST FRIENDS OR FAMILY TO SHARE THIS WITH THEM BECAUSE ITS TOO EMBARASSING. IF GOD CANT HELP I DONT KNOW WILL I SURVIVE....

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Comment by Shadrack Mulei Metho on March 22, 2009 at 12:02pm: Dear angel,
From today start confessing that you are a son of the most High God , confess that your marriage is healed the devil is a liar and was defeated 2000yrs ago when He arose the third day we are more than conquerors, if God is on our side who can be against us neither death nor divorce not the things we seen or not see can separate us from the love of God , confess without fear that you are blessed . find a closer spiritual father to take you deeper on the word of God. And today look for your husband just tell him you still love him and you are ready to forgive him. and be assured of my prayers Jesus loves you so much and i do love you and one day you will give testimony. be blessed.

Comment by LOST ANGEL; on March 22, 2009 at 9:29am: thanks so much for takin time out to share thoses valuable lessons to me. its strange thta i never knew all i had to do was believe an give my prblms an worries to god.... i think i wud have ben stress free many situationa ago. thanks alot!!!!!!!

Comment by felixpadua on March 21, 2009 at 7:14am: hello angel, i don't like to call you lost. you have been found, angel. From now on, God will be on your side. and if God is on your side, who can be against you? Celebrate Angel, the whole AAG family is your family now. You're one of us, and we are here to help you. Just let us know.

Comment by LOST ANGEL; on March 21, 2009 at 6:48am: THANKS SO MUCH FOR COMMENTING BACK. I DO FEEL THAT YOU ARE SO CORRECT. I GUESS GOD TESTS OUR STRENGH. MY PARENTS ARE DECEASED SO GOD IS ALL I HAVE, I TOTALLY DEPEND ON HIM IN A GOOD SITUATION AN ALL THE BAD ONES. I THINK IT WAS IN GOD PLAANS FOR ME TO JOIN THIS WEB SITE TO GET THE SPIRITUAL INPUT IM LOOKING FOR. THANKS!!!!!!!!!

Comment by Jeanette B on March 21, 2009 at 3:53am: I believe that the Holy Spirit has been at work in your life for a LONG time. Before you were saved, He was convicting you of sin, and drawing you to Christ. He was the One who was behind your conversion. And after you confess Christ and repented of your sin, it was He who did that transforming work in your heart. He made you knew... He breathed life into your dead spirit. You even saw the change in your own life.

And then, as you say, you stopped attending church as much, and your started to slip back into your old ways. Satan had his hay-day with you. And then try as you might to serve God and please Him and not do the wrong thing, you can't!!! It is impossible to do that in our own strength.

But the way back is simple. Repent and ask the Holy Spirit to take control of your life. Acknowledge the fact that in your own strength you foul up!! Ask Him to help you to pray, to read your Bible, and to realize how much God loves you. He loves us more than we can ever know!!

And then, when we begin to understand His love for us, then we are able to love Him back, and He fills us with His love so that we can love others. Ask God to love others through you... even your husband.

Acknowledge God in everything you do, and He will show you what to do.

A favourite text of mine:
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and He will direct your path." (Prov 3:5-6)

I do pray that this helps!!

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