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I haven't been here since I first signed up. I'm really sorry to all the people who so graciously reached out to me in friendship... I'm just... really tired, really discouraged.

The thing is... I don't know where I'm at. I know God in my head... I accept the Truth on an intellectual level. But my heart feels cold and dead. I see my Christian friends, and they seem SO spirit filled, so close to God. And I wonder, whats wrong with me? Why don't I have that? What am I doing wrong? When I pray... it seems to bounce of the ceiling back at me. My spiritual life just reflects the mess of the rest of my life... personal, professional, relational.

I'm not sure what the point and purpose any more. Go to church? Sit there while my butt goes numb, struggle to pay attention, paste a smile on my face and pretend like everything is okay. I know the right words to say to sound enlightened... but really, I'm sitting alone in the dark.

It makes me question everything. I know God is real, and all powerful, I don't down that. But maybe he's just not interested in me. Maybe I've screwed up too many times. Blown all my chances. Maybe God decided I wasn't worth the effort. So now I'm stuck in this place...not willing to go back to my old life, not able to go forward.

If anyone has taken the time to read this blog... please pray for me.

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Comment by Dr. Cheryl Durham on January 1, 2009 at 11:54am: AHH, your assumptions are that if you are truly a Christian, if God is really there, then you will FEEL good...but that is simply not true...if that WERE the case then Jesus, who is also known as the MAN OF SORROWS, probably wasn't GOD either...but we all know that He was...Jesus told us to pick up our cross...not a padded one, and the Christian life is not different because all Christians are happy, it is different because WHILE we are suffering Christ is in the suffering with us...The song What a Friend we Have in Jesus, or Amazing Grace, tells us much about what happens in life...we are in a place, that God did not originally intend for it to be, HOWEVER, what He wants us to do while we are here, is to stop focusing on US and start focusing on what He has given us to do (2Cor. 5;17-21) THEN, after we have forgotten ourselves, tTHEN and Only Then will we begin to feel the joy that comes from God.
No one in the Godhead, God the Father, God the Son, or God the Holy Spirit, thinks of themselves. They completely give themselves to one another, and in doing that RECEIVE all the love they can handle. I know this may sound inside out or unbelievable but it is true. The only way to feel good is to forget about self. I am a Biblical Counselor. If you would like to talk, email me...we can set something up on the phone.
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