Ellie's Blog (3)

I have prayed for a forgiving heart, a way to learn to deal with  the anger and resentment that comes with being unable to forgive. Although I tell myself that I have forgiven and moved on certain things happen which trigger memories which brings back the anger and resentment. I want to be able to wholeheartedly forgive and be able to look at those memories triggered and smile about them with no anger and resentment. I guess what I really want is to be at peace and be able to see each twist…

God is all I seek in this life

I am wide awake, I yearn to feel His presence yet all I feel is alone. Is this what despair feels like? I have so much to be thankful for; my loving family, my beautiful son and so much more. But i need His presence, I feel like if I could feel Him around me, and feel His loving, forgiving arms around me I will be fine. Is it that my faith is weak or that I am not praying enough? I am sorry dear Lord for all I have done, I need you, my heart is open to you. Please save me