John

58 yr old man wanting to be more in love with and submitted to Jesus Christ than I have been my whole life. I am not a good example of a Christian at all, in fact, wonder by the deadness of my works, whether my conversion was ever genuine. But His grace has kept me with Him, or else I would have gone away permanently forever. Only His grace keeps me even now. He is faithful and true. I was converted from being a Christian hater in my younger days, but God surprised me and showed me He really is there. It was a step by step conversion over time as He brought more opportunities for repentance and believing. I have accepted Him but still have trouble with bi-polar personality which, when in down cycle, I do and say things that are very wrong. Need to cease being a double minded man.