Im waiting to receive my final divorce decree in the mail. My husband asked for the separation and divorce and refused counseling saying it was too little too late. I am so angry at myself and my failures in this marriage. I'm disapoointed that I acknowledged things that were off, and did nothing about them, and now ended up in this situation. I love my husband with all my heart, but I obviously did not do a good job of showing him that. We are both Christians, but only I was attending church these last few months. He's never been involved in church and didn't like discussing christianity and Jesus. As I sit and wait for my papers, how do I get away from placing all the blame on myself. Ive repented to God and to my stbx as well for my sins and failures. I just feel so lost, confused and alone.