I am a defeated soul folks. I tried all things possible to make a living. All things.
Long story short: I have been reduced to the worst form of loser in existence, and I cant seem to do anything about it. I dont even try anymore.
I've had faith God would bless me, but the years (9 of them) have been dry, empty, and me watching others catapult ahead. I've completely given up on God, my future, and anything. I cant even get back into school without taking out loans.
I pray to God to help me get back on track. Nothing.
Nothing. Nothing. Nothing.
I know I hardly know anyone here, but my life isnt a life of eternal life. It's more like eternal death...eternal suffering...eternal failure. I need freedom. I am currently seeing a Christian Therapist/Counselor.
I want to win more than anything, but with the way life is progressing, I'd rather die. I've been around enough times...everyone insists Jesus is everything.
I dont even care anymore. I am so dead in spirit I cant even fight the faith.
Is the Christian life merely just waiting to die?
I know it is tough, but you have to try again. I have felt the same in the past, when I was battling with a disease for 9 years. The world couldn’t help, but when I turned my life completely to Christ, that’s when things changed and I am now healed in Jesus name. I know how hard it is, but it is the only way. To get you on the right path and doing things the right way, you must listen to this message by Curry Blake’s. Just download it and listen, I promise you, if you receive it, it will change you:
Please, don’t give up.
Thank you. I was trying to look for good Curry Blake New Man training vids, but the copies on Youtube sounded grainy and incoherent. What you provided is PERFECT, and I thank you for this.
I think I need to fully go all in. I never fully committed.
EDIT: Yep. Curry Blake was the missing message that's helping me understand
That’s awesome Hector. You’re right, that’s what it takes, complete, 100% consecration and dedication. I listen to Curry at least 6 or 7 hours a day, driving it in, as well as renewing my mind with the Word.
Please remember, it does sometimes get worse before it gets better. The devil wants to test us to see if we really believe. The disease I had got a lot worse the first month, but as I continued to stand in faith, believing God's Word, I saw improvement. You’ll eventually get to place where you’ll enjoy the fight, because you know with Christ, you’re going to win!
God bless you and keep you strong!
I pray all is well with you. If you get a chance, please let us know how you are doing?