Thanks for taking the time to share man. The good thing is that you want to change, that shows your heart is in a good place.
A lot of addictions stem from a low self-esteem, people don’t see the value of their lives or the lives of others and the devil will come with the guilt (I’m not forgiven), condemnation (I’m worthy of judgement) and finally the shame (It’s who I am).
You are worth the blood of Jesus Christ and the good fight of faith is never forgetting the truth of who you are and who you have become because of Christ, no matter what you are going through or how you are feeling.
If you can, please watch this video from Pastor Dan Mohler, will help you on the right path and teach you how to submit to God and be better equipped to resist the devil.
There’s lots of Dan MP3’s to download below, I recommend to do the Harvest Chapel Kingdom Living School 2011 to start.
No problem Chris. You have 15 mins after posting to edit, otherwise just delete and re-post if it's bugging you. As Brent said, surrender is so important and we all need to build an intimate relationship with the Lord, one on one time with Him alone in our bedrooms.
That's how we start renewing our minds and that's why listening to Dan will help. He teaches how to really pray etc. I listen at work, 5 to 6 hours a day and it's helped me so many times, I can't even begin to tell you.
The truth is that you are worth the blood of Jesus Christ and He loves you Chris. This must become bigger than how you feel, what you are involved in or what you are producing. When you wake up to this Truth, it will start to become your reality!
God bless you, Dave
I got this message this morning, and I thought it would bless you. This is from Worthy News Brief 6/8/18 and the Bible.
1 Corinthians 1:26-29 For you see your calling, brethren, that not many wise according to the flesh, not many mighty, not many noble, are called. But God has chosen the foolish things of the world to put to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to put to shame the things which are mighty; and the base things of the world and the things which are despised God has chosen, and the things which are not, to bring to nothing the things that are, that no flesh should glory in His presence.
If He was a man of the world, Yeshua (Jesus) would have chosen the elite of His day to accomplish His mission -- however He used simple fishermen. These men were considered uneducated, lacking "social status", wealth or worldly distinction of any kind -- yet these "simple" men were the ones the Lord selected to build the Kingdom of God.
Consider what Peter said...When Simon Peter realized what had happened, he fell to his knees before Jesus and said, "Oh, Lord, please leave me--I'm too much of a sinner to be around you." (Luke 5:8 NLT)
What about Thomas?...Now Thomas (also known as Didymus), one of the Twelve, was not with the disciples when Jesus came. So the other disciples told him, “We have seen the Lord!” But he said to them, “Unless I see the nail marks in his hands and put my finger where the nails were, and put my hand into his side, I will not believe.” A week later his disciples were in the house again, and Thomas was with them. Though the doors were locked, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you!” Then he said to Thomas, “Put your finger here; see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it into my side. Stop doubting and believe.” Thomas said to him, “My Lord and my God!” Then Jesus told him, “Because you have seen me, you have believed;blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.” (John 20:24-29 NIV)
When the children of Israel were slaves in Egypt, God didn't send an army to deliver them, He sent a single man. But a single man of God was shown to be greater than the most powerful kingdom on Earth.
Think about David and Goliath...So David triumphed over the Philistine with a sling and a stone; without a sword in his hand he struck down the Philistine and killed him. (1 Samuel 17:50 NIV)...Goliath was a strong man of war, and David was a teenager.
Throughout the Bible, we read of the Lord choosing and using the weak things of the world to confound and shame the wise and powerful. God seems to love revealing His awesome power through humble vessels, so that no flesh can glory in His presence.
Don't allow the enemy to convince you that God cannot use you because you are "flawed", weak, or seemingly inconsequential. No, instead, remember that He uses the base, despised, nonentities of this world, ordinary, often broken, people...to do extraordinary things. Our God is not looking at your wealth, your social status or your education -- He's looking at your heart! If your heart is willing and your life is available, then He is more than able to perform miraculous work through you for His Kingdom's sake. With so much work to be done, don't allow the enemy to stifle or steal the Lord's vision for your life –- He has a plan to use you to confound the wise of this world, and to bring to naught the things that are!