Greetings to all brothers and sisters,
I decided to start my first discussion because I'm in desperate need of advice. I just really need to spill what's on my mind because just about now a fact painfully struck me in my heart.
First of all, the root of my problem lies in the fact that only very few of my friends believe in God and have faith in Jesus. Especially my family, even my very own parents, don't believe that God is out there. The time is rather spent drinking alcohol and doing other insignificant things.
Two aunts of mine own a bar, of which one of them, my parents frequently visit. And so do I. I've grown up there (the first time I had been there was when I was 3 years old.) Throughout the years I've also built up friendships with the people there and I care a lot about them.
It hurts me so bad, it tears up my heart to merely think of the inevitable fact that my best friends, and my family - including my parents, will be condemned for eternity since they lack faith in Christ. I've been trying to make small moves by telling them my beliefs, the pros of having faith and the pleasure it brings to praise the Lord. They respect it, but they don't feel anything for it themselves. Persuading others has never been one of my strong points. And I also don't want to make the impression as if I'm wanting to force it down their throats. That wouldn't work anyway, they have to be willing to accept Christ themselves.
I pray for all of them daily. That they may be saved through Christ before it is all too late because I care about every single one of them and all of them mean a lot to me. I feel so horrible to know I can barily do anything but pray; I would see nothing rather than to see them coming to God..
Bringing up another point:
I have never attended a church, since I am not raised within a Christian household it has never been a habit. I am 16 years old now, but I don't know where to start with looking for a church to attend. Besides, my idea of going to church has always been that it is a family-occasion. Picturing the mother and the father attending church together with their child(ren) to thank and praise the Lord, and to seek comfort from our Holy Father. It saddens me to realise I probably will never be part of such a picture and to never be able to share the happiness of being into God with my own family and friends.
That is about it for now that I had to get off of my heart.
Thank you very much for your time when you have read it, it means a lot to me.
God bless you all.
Tags: family, friends, pain
Share
-
▶ Reply to This