Holidays, Birthdays all around corner true challenge.

Mom died back on Sept 14th Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years all around the corner.My birthday and moms birthday are around the corner too mines December 9 and moms was January 11th.I got moms remainders from cremation at Waldon Funeral Home .I had to get county to help with expenses but it took a month and a half , copies of her death certificate last month. Im alone not close to her family but they know shes gone meaning mom found out online.Nursing home probably told them , Im alone, single 5 yrs.Yes will see Grief Counseling and Counseling tomorrow, theyve helped.Mr Butler is going out of town , havent been to church in a while due to work.Other church members havent invited me to Thanksgiving. Ill be alone Ill get through but its hard.I wish I knew my deathdate or Jesus comes to be relieved.