I think I get criticized for choosing to hang out on a secular site verses a Christian one. One time I was criticized in a private message for trying to befriend unbelievers. I don't think a lot of my Critics understand what it's like to live my life in Isolation. In my opinion when people try give me advice about this stuff they only show their own ignorance. There is a lot of things people tell me that I agree with but in reality it does not always work. I don't feel comfortable explaining every detail of my life from beginning to end. I don't think I should haft too explain all that stuff, I think when I say "My Life makes me Socially Isolated" it should be good enough. What makes me mad is how these people who don't know me, nor do they know what I went through or what I'm going through now, think they can message me and some how straighten me out. I know my blogs are Vague which is why I find it Amazing just how many assumptions they come up with. The story is always the same "they try to help me but end up hurting me instead". Like I said I'm not going to explain every detail of how my life became socially isolated nor am I going to explain why there is nothing I can do to change it. All you need to know is the LORD has not provided me the ability or the means to make changes to my life. One thing that seems to hurt me is how some people will chime in and say things like "God's great wisdom He hasn't given me a way to change things" Like this is the way things are therefor if I can't get Godly Friends then I shouldn't have any friends at all, besides they are not true friends anyways." If you just read that and said to yourself "huh? I better read that again" I want you to know that is almost exactly what one person wrote me in a Private Message. What makes me even madder at people is how ridiculous they write things. I think everyone should reread everything they write before they post it too or send it too another. Sometimes I feel like pulling out my hair because I don't think I'm that hard to understand.
My independent life fell apart several times in several different ways and yet it wasn't my fault. Was it really my fault that people spent more time making fun and abusing instead acting civil and Friendly? Was it my fault the bad things that happened to my parents, and was it my fault that the churches I attended fell apart? Was it my fault that I was born with a learning disability and other issues? Was it my fault that employers didn't want me? Was it my fault that ended up becoming a janitor? Was it my fault that all the Christian sites I tried to get involved in lost interest in things and died out? Now you see why I'm on SAS. Because out of all the sites I've ever been too, it's at least active. And just maybe God wants me there. Do you want reasons why? Perhaps it's because God tells everyone to be fishers of men, to tell others about Him. God has got His interests at heart and we are His tools. It is in our best interest to be His tool. I think you go to look at not merely what people do but why they do it. I don't like to be on SAS, my heart isn't really in it, but like I said before It's an active place where I can at least talk to people, and sometimes I get the chance to share my faith. If you feel the need to help me, please Pray for Me, but don't comment me unless it's something Positive or Uplifting. Because if it just compounds my pain, even a rebuke, isn't going to do me any good.