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Female
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I'm here to...
fellowship
Interests:
Jesus, the truth, anatomy, airplane Snoopy, Kimi and Dil
I'm passionate about...
I want to be more pasionate about Jesus and whatever He leads me to.

Life and truth
My story with God
8th grade was the worst. In my 1st homeroom, a girl I knew since we were both little tried to take my picture-big mistake. A boy taunted me saying "I don't want my picture taken because it will steal my soul!" I hid behind the school book on indians. I heard someone ask "Is she still hiding behind that book?" In math class ( different day) a girl teased me saying my name. I sighed heavily-she laughed so hard she almost fell out of her seat! I thought the kid behind me was making duck noises. The girl in front was mean. I was trapped. A girl, a boy and me had to be called out of class-another episode of the class embarrasment! The girl who teased me, Mrs.__ wanted her to be my partner in a math game it didn't work too well.

It was a cold day in Nov. of 06.; in my 2nd homeroom (had to because my friend who was needed someone she knew in her homeroom). Please pray she gets saved by Jesus. It was the group I was in turn for computers. I didn't like the blasphamous cartoon of Jesus (despite not yet being saved by Him) on the screen saver. I changed it. A boy came over and said "You're so dead, I'm going to stab you with this pencil, just wait until I get you out on the street alone!" Please pray Jesus saves him. I went into a very deep depression after that. To top that when certain songs came on it turned my sucidal thoughts even worse! It wasn't only feelings of wanting to die, but feelings of intrapment and dread. I wanted to hear it so I could get more depressed. I was very messed up in thinking. Thinking that wouldn't be appropriate to even put on this forum!

Around the same time I was on SOVA, an online group to try and get the old Pokemon voice actors back. I talked to people about my problem of bullying. I talked to especially this one girl. Anyway, I wanted SOVA to win more than anything. So, I looked up ways. I found a couple-spells and prayer. Yes, sadly, I tried a cheap spell. She, a girl on SOVA, talked to me about God. I didn't care much about religion but I went along with it. I didn't believe Jesus was God so I said "God and Jesus". I thought it was a horrible belief. I still talked to my false Jesus though. I found a prayer online of salvation. I trusted it and not Jesus.

I was too scared of killing myself. I didn't want to be punished and go to hell (I didn't really even think about going to hell because I didn't have Jesus-that kind of thinking was before Jesus really even came to my mind, I just thought I would go for killing myself). So, I figured I'd call on the evil lady in the mirror, Bloody Mary. I figured if she killed me than I wouldn't be accountable (I didn't realize without Jesus I truly wouldn't get to heaven). I was mixed up. I trusted Jesus but I don't think my brain could comprehend salvation yet, heaven and hell. One time I remember though looking at a pill bottle on the table. Thoughts of swallowing those pills entered into my mind. A problem I had was I didn't want to tell anyone I knew face to face. I kept how I felt locked up in my heart for the most part (may have mentioned something a tiny bit). Good thing though, I went to a counsler and the bullying decreased dramatically.In 11th grade I ate some salad as a side food at school. I found out something was wrong with the lettuce later that day. I cried out to God. "Please don't let me die!" atleast a few times. I realized I needed salvation soon. I don't know if it was that day but I heard the song on my Christian bluegrass CD "Only Trust Him". I went into a room. I heard someone tell me to wait to get saved. I heard Someone else, who had to have been ether Jesus or the Holy Spirit (it may have been the Father, I don't know) tell me not to harden my heart to the Holy Ghost. If I did I'd ether harden my heart to the point of ether never recieving salvation or it'd be very difficult to get to that point again. Jesus saved my soul from hell after that. May 29th,Sat., 2010

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  • Pammie♥


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    Hey darling.I'm gonna tell you what people tell me all the time.Don't be critical or hard on yourself.You are a very loved person on this site.What is it they say?-We have to love ourselves before someone else can love us-or something like that.Thinking of you and smiling because I like/love you.Prayers are going up for you daily.-sending great big hugs your way-reach up and catch them-okay?-love Pammie♥

    Jan 29, 2014

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    I sure do miss seeing you around and your posting.  I hope you are doing good.

    Feb 15, 2014

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    Hey Feet, I was just looking at my friends list and saw your name. I hope you are doing good and are happy. I remember you had so many struggles but at the same time loved the Lord so much. I miss your post.... I hope someday you decide to return here.  Love Janie...

    Apr 10, 2014